Through Idealistic Eyes

As a young child, I imagined myself to be a fulfilled, successful and driven adult, and I thought I could only achieve this if I would become a medical doctor. So when I was about to go into college, I knew what school and program I wanted to apply for: I would go to UST and take a pre-med program like Biology or the like. When the moment came for me to actually choose and apply, I did go for UST but I did not apply for any pre-med program. Instead, my first choice was Education. To the cut the story short, I pursued my application and when I got into the program, I was a wee bit confused and uncertain, but I knew I WAS HAPPY.

During my 4-year stay in college, I learned to like what I was doing. May it be preparing lesson plans, making my instructional materials for class, or even the practical side of it all, I learned to enjoy. But even after I graduated college, I still had some questions in mind which I wanted to answer, like “Do I really want to be a teacher?”, “Why am I here in the first place”, “Why am I doing this?”, “Would this make me feel fulfilled and successful?”, these were just some of the questions I have in my mind, even until now.

But as I look into them now, I say to myself that belonging to the teaching profession is as much fulfilling as to being in another profession. I knew that when I applied for the Education program, it was an intrinsic effort in my part. No one forced me to choose it, nor did I force myself to apply for it. But the questions that are still seeking answers are, “Will I feel fulfilled and successful in my chosen profession?” “Will I be able to seek the truth through teaching?” Eventhough I’m still seeking answers for these questions, one thing that comforts me now is the idea that being in the teaching profession gives me the opportunity to be a model or exemplar for my students. Maybe through this, I will be able to assist them in realizing their strengths and potentials, as well as to have satisfaction and personal fulfillment.